Skipping

So, we skipped Church yesterday, and it was awesome. we have been struggling with our church lately, and we finally decided to do some looking around. I have been going to this church for 8 years, so this decision dose not come lightly. and we may end up back, at the same place, but it is just time to look at other options. It has been so hard to connect lately in the Church. Ever scence our small group disbanded, it has not been the same at all. But more importantly, skipping church was such a relief, especially after reading through Blue and really beginning to realise living by grace and outside of the law. I really agree with one comment i heard from a pastor, he said "all my life, growing up, we were told that we did not have to live by the law, but by grace, and then the church would proceeded to teach us how to follow all the rules." It seamed kind of like flossing your teeth, every one agrees that it is the best thing to do, but who actually dose it?

Blue

So i finally finished blue like jazz. I know i am kind of a late comer to this but i have been reading nothing but psychology for the past three years. It was actually my fist non required reading that i have done sense graduating. and if nothing else, it showed me that i have a heart that will be captured by just about any ones vision or passion. I experienced this in my schooling as well. every time i finished a class i was sure that was the area of counseling i was going to specialize in. after the ptsd class, i wanted to work with that, after the grief and loss, i wanted to work in a hospice, after psychopharmachology, i wanted to kill my self. any way, i feel the same things after reading such a good book like blue. on one side, i really like that i have a open heart and can join others in there passion, but on the other side, i would really like to have a passion that i can call my own, one that is totally mine and is chosen for me. I am getting a strange feeling like i have written this some where before. oh well, i guess this would be a good time to post my life long goals.

1. To have MY compound raided by the ATF
2. To see it rain beer
3. To eat my weight in something
4. To have an invention featured on an infomercial
5. To make the Letterman top 10 list
6. To eat a bald eagle.